Meditate

Up early trying to search for my inner peace

To find myself outside surrounded by nature

All my senses consumed by the trees

The wind whistling and birds singing soon cater

I just sit and let it seep in

So focused, you can’t interrupt this view

As I slowly start to breath in

I close my eyes and count in my head, one…two

For several minutes I embrace the moment

My brain go on do not disturb

The lack of negativity erases any opponent

No distractions, more tuned in with what’s pictured

I let the morning sun warm my vitals

As the blood heats up and pulses through my veins

My soul in deep relaxation while my body idles

Then the weight on my shoulders is lifted like cranes

Increasing my breaths

I fall deeper

Trying to cleanse all the stress

Only good vibes on my mind because I’m a dreamer

Then the grass begins feeling like quicksand

As it started sinking

My aura is the only thing holding me up like a kickstand

Right before I completely fall in and stop thinking

The sound of my alarm snaps me back

I open my eyes and just gaze

I twist and turn as my bones cracks in my back

As I light my joint full of haze

Then inhale

And exhale

Random Thought

I’m the quiet type, yet sometimes vocal

Although you can feel my aura like goku

But don’t get mad if I don’t approach you

I’m not conceded just a little shy and anti-social

When it comes to relationships, I tip toe

I mean I’m not trying to get drunk off love, but I’ll sip slow

Eventually though, so why rush

No more toxicity I have to switch gears, so I clutch

Good vibes are the only thing I’m in search of

I have to feel you out first in order to read you like braille sort of

I can’t see any red flags like I’m color blind

Plus, the past wounds just healed, but I still hide and cover mine

Just so I don’t get judged so quickly

Just like a rose, you have to be careful with love it’s still prickly

That’s why my heart got me practicing caution

But they still try to put a bid in like an auction

No more bad marks left like a drunken tattoo

So, I just stay in my place like a statue

Because nothing but pain will come trying to remove it

Nah, I rather remain doubtful and let life prove it

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Random Thought

We lay under the stars

As I let their light shine through her

Because she shines through me

We gravitate towards each other

As our vibes collide and start glowing

It’s truly love u can see

How could such a perfect being be so equal

I mean every shape and curve

Could that be symmetry

Our differences blend together

Our auras mixing creating pure sexual reactions

No wonder why we have so much chemistry

Our love is priceless

So I’m stingy with her

Her heart is all mine to keep

I think I found my other half

I doubt it though, I’m used to a departed heart

But it might be, because me plus her equals complete

Random Thought

Man I swear this girl nuts, I nicknamed her cashew

Because she keep telling me the love is past due

So let me ask u

Do u think this is a joke, because I want to laugh too

U say we have a lot of problems to tackle, but u rather let them pass u

U think love is the finish line, but u steady let people lap u

Your heart shouldn’t feel like a jail, u shouldn’t let them trap u

U say you’re an old soul, but act brand new

You’re always putting me down, which is why I can’t stand u

I really hope u marinate what I’m saying to u

U have so many trust issues, even the smallest things take a day to prove

Your foundation was weak, your shame kept raining through

I mean u had me like a dog, everything u say I’ll do

Your last name should have been parker, because u acted like it was a game to u

I must look insane to u

Must be because all I see is a loony tune, so I’m blaming u

But that’s not what I came to do

I just wanted to write this letter naming u

For our sudden break, but respect is what I’m paying u

Because at the end of the day I’ll be alone, but a lifetime of loneliness and regret is what will be gaining u

Inhale

Could it be that the love of my life came from a bean

Even though our engagements are rarely seen

But every time I’m around her I can feel butterflies in my spleen

Inhale

When I feel like I’m in hell

Or when my mind is trapped like I’m in jail

She’s usually right there with the bail

Inhale

Sometimes I overindulge on every node

Because she always straightened me up, she never let me fold

And even though she’s bad news, her flame never left me cold

Inhale

She smell like she bathes in grapefruit

The thought of her body will never escape u

If looks could kill, I’m in trouble because I have a great view

Inhale

As soon as her aura gets absorbed it’s an instant high

Though she makes me nervous, she could make the most innocent lie

So baby girl take this ride

With yours truly to outer space, where you’ll be forever mine

Inhale

Random Thought

I’ve stolen so many hearts, I’m now paying the fine

I’m at a stand still, but the only thing the keeps running is time

The truth expose everybody so just wait in line

It seems like comfort is so hard to find

So off in space I’ve lost my mind

The world left me blind

While the past left me behind

Just wait son

Was whispered to me followed by, until your day come

They say three is a charm, well I guess I’m a great one

My words are honest, I never fake none

It’s just a penny for my thoughts, here take one

Chill kid

I was told followed by, until we build kid

Along with my dreams, my nightmares are still big

Socially awkward and a little weird, but I’m sick with words like I have an illness

But patience is what I have to deal with

I’m just hoping u can feel this

We made it

Was yelled out followed by, see that’s with all that time dedicated

The truth is being dumb down, that’s why u have to stay educated

I stay medicated

Because my mind never vacant

My talent is original so I won’t let them take it

My soul shine bright like a diamond so I won’t let them break it

On so much of a high I swear I feel elevated

Because everyday greatness is celebrated

Like I was never supposed to make it

….so u can bet on me……..

Happy Valentine’s Day

My love, has been the same one for 29 years

Through all the tears, fears and nightmares

U been there for all of them

Your love always make me feel like a kid again

Your kisses are like medicine

Those warm moments are always relevant

Her little man, she always reminds me that I’m handsome and intelligent

U saw how love always left me so cold, so u bought me a sweater vest

It’s always u that I went to

It’s always u I would vent to

I thank God everyday that he sent u

Because then I wouldn’t exist

If I used my words to describe what u mean to me, it’ll be too much to list

You’re my wish

U can make me feel so safe just by one kiss

You’re my superhero

Always tell u I love u no matter the cooler ego

Valentines isn’t anymore special than any other day that might pop up

My love will never get separated not even by a comma

Just like everyday, I love u mama

Random Thought

U perfect yet unique like a snowflake

U got me trying to prove our love exist like a probate

Ever since I was six, u been the type I hope to date

The one I hope to mate

I just didn’t know the date

I nick-named u “good gracious”

I guess that’s what u get when u show patience

And a goal for greatness

Breathless is what u left me

My life is what u can bet me

If u tell me to put my love on the line, go ahead test me

Because I believe you’re what God blessed me

No longer will I let doubt effect me

I put a pause on my life just to see how our future will play out, hoping u don’t rec me

It’s this thing about love

U can be the hardest thing out or even a thug, but u can feel that love in your blood

Yet the only thing holding u back is trust

So then that love thing gets turned into lust

It can turn a good thing to a mutt

A sure thing to a slut

Put a label on u, call u boo-thing just for some butt

While u denying that little feeling in your gut

Choosing to keep your mouth shut

But I think we depreciate the value of love

No loyalty, is why we get discarded like dust

Turning that childhood crush into arguments and fuss

Turning what used to shine so bright into rust

No..no tell all those urges it’s quiet time, now hush

Because I swear u can make a black man blush

U make me want to eat all those ghosts in my closet like pacman lunch

U worth it

Why, because love is the verdict

And no I’m not trying to play any games just had to be certain

I swear love make u extra careful like a virgin

That’s why I have to try, because it’s the only thing that will stop the hurting

Plus it’ll be too heavy for me to have to burden

That’s when she took me upstairs and started kissing me until we had to close the curtain

 

 

 

 

Random Thought

If I had a penny for every chick that tried to take my heart away

I’d have about a dollar that’s why I rather part ways

To me, love is heart shaped

I can dream about it, but never partake

It seems like everybody always chummy towards me like I’m shark bait

I think my luck ran out so from now on I’ll pray

But I’m not trying to go outside my comfort zone, for now I’ll stay

And if u try to rush love then I’ll choose to wait

My love needs to be aged like wine, I can keep it flowing like any lake

Her kisses are like sugar, her heart like cake

U got me begging like a child, there’s no mistake

Your warm embrace I never wanted to break

But with so much at stake

Love is tricky, yet sticky like tape

I mean I get it, but I just arrived a little too late

Asking myself if my past cleared me to date

Or if I have any leftover baggage that might get in the way

So for now my heart is an oval, but finally willing to take shape

See at first I had a bib, now it’s more like a cape

Before I had a wall up, now it’s just a gate

Before I had too many wishes, now it’s just fate

So why look for something you’re not ready for, that’s like trying to sleep while you’re awake

 

 

 

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