Random Thought

I ask myself, would life be better if I had the opportunity to change it

Before I can answer I need to get it in order, it still needs rearranging

Out with the old, in with the new like a revolving door

The way I adapt to every obstacle proves I’m evolving more

Although some signs were missed or ignored

I feel like I been on the bench so far because I haven’t got an assist or scored

The older I’m getting the slower I’m getting to chasing my goals

But I’ve been tip toeing around like I’m walking on hot coals

Being unsure and uncertain is uncomfortable

Been heated and depleted of energy like I had a summer flu

I used to be a loner, but now I’m just all alone

I used to detect dreams like sonar but now I mostly atone

All the negativity that holds me back

Because I’m still constantly searching for what I was told I lack

Struggling trying not to expose my flaws

Been living in a house of doubt, looking explode some walls

With pity being the furniture as a matter of fact

But now it’s all in jeopardy like pat sajak

Need help, like someone please take the wheel but still utter instruction

I guess there’s more work to be done like my life under construction