Alter Ego

I’m just being honest, no future

the pain in my veins feels like I’m having trouble with a suture

but I’m steady flexing on them like lex luger

no need to size me up because I’m already a ruler

don’t let the cool guy fool u

I keep these fiends clucking like a rooster

nowadays everybody want that top seat but come up short, they need a booster

I swear my nightmares come to life, freddy kruger

these lines so cold they’ll cool u like a cooler

u can try to change the game until they owe u, like a sooner

but see I want to eclipse the game, no lunar

now the game can rest in my shadow, that the rumor

I use my words to humor u

but can cause more damage than a tumor do

I feel my life is empty like a hoola hoop

I don’t know how I come up with such crazy lines, guess I’m coo coo

I know I look harmless like a poodle do

but I have no problem showing u what this uzi do

hold up let me switch it up like a rubiks cube

excuse the attitude

I apologize if I’m coming off a little rude

I feel like I’m falling apart, the stress got me a little unglued

I’m at a point where I don’t know who is who and that’s not usual

get treated like a dog, I guess I’m another misunderstood pit-bull

I’m such a square because I’m so closed up, like its cool

yeah, I been a fool

then I grew up and learned how to change

yeah, I been to school

success over everything, yeah that been the rule

I’m swimming with ideas, so 2015 will be my pool

Happy New Year

Hello all, first off Happy New Year to my wordpress fam. Second, sorry I’ve been m.i.a for awhile but I bring u, not one but at least three updates. Staying busy has been the process over these past few months and it has produced the final version of my book of poetry. For a physical copy go here¬†http://www.blurb.com/b/5477274-pieces-from-my-sanity Sorry for the plug lol. Also this summer I will produce my first short story of a series of short stories, so I hope y’all can check that out. Ive also been working on my entrepreneurial skills to produce a new but very useful product this fall. Finally, Im back on here producing new poetry and new random thoughts, as well as updates on my upcoming projects. I hope I can share another year with u all so please stay tuned.

Regret

U say u love her
but u don’t trust her
plus u barely know her
drunk in love, but u sober
she wants to make up
but u just want to come over
u get called names
because u don’t want to hold her
eventually your heart grows colder
she cries, u don’t even offer your shoulder
drunk in love, but u sober
so now you’re drinking, scared of what u told her
that’s when u realized, that love bug bite was more like a cobra
because she treats u like she’s supposed to
once left hopeless but she makes u hopeful
u can’t fight the fact that your high standards might get lowered
drunk in love, but u sober
now you’re thinking of a way to control her
u don’t want to repeat the past, so u press fast forward
too late though, u were already under her spell but didn’t ask for it
you’re mad because u keep tripping without a passport
so u take shots to numb the pain, but u don’t have the cash for it
right then reality hit hard, like u collided with the dashboard
the only thing u can picture now is regret like a poster
drunk in love, but u sober

Random Thought

I’m a Chicagoan
so I feel I have to look over both shoulders
one for the thieves that steal lives
and these police that suppose to fight crimes
but who remember those times
now guys are getting shot with stop signs
but who rise
we lose guys
we end up being so mad we loot our own s***, get a clue guys
I mean is this the only time u seen police crime rise, tell the truth guys
so cutthroat it’s like they’re wearing quite a few knives
and have no problem ending a future in the present too by two guys
the media is against us
the police are against us
the government is against us
but what’s even worst, we are against us
instead of getting beat down, can we start standing up for what we believe in
instead of fighting for race that hold us, lets start a march on the justice system whose been cheating the lives of young men
just think, they trap us then give us access to heat, then sit back and let things stir up like a wok, its sick
but this is my opinion on the conflict, I see things in another perspective a different optic
I wasn’t going to touch this like it was toxic
but it seem like a hot topic
I guess I’m just looking for the logic
I mean not even the cries of “I’m hit” will get them from firing from their cockpit
we need to stop this
I said I wasn’t on anymore negativity, so I really didn’t pay attention to repeated history
so I’m going to put it to bed and watch how Chicago kids greeted history instead

Random Thought

I quote potent scriptures like a reverend
my will is real, call me will because I am legend
maybe that’s a long shot, but I can measure
I just want to shine, so I’m going to keep showing u my hidden treasure
they say I’m misunderstood, but honestly I never met her
how I’m too cold, they think I should sweater
no coogi or izod though, I’m just trying to be cool so it’s more like a sweatshirt
but it seems that something is always storming no matter the weather
now, I would never say I’m the best but sometimes I feel that shoe fits me better
but I don’t stand alone, my achievements raise hope so hopefully we’ll rise up together
it’s crazy this society string us up with so many lies until it’s hard to break the tether
that’s why I think I’m different in every texture
excuse me for this lecture
fame, yup I reject her
pain, comes from all the pressure
peace, I wish I could catch her
this wordsmith want to put his worship on every surface like a projector
I finally bare the fruits of the spirit so it’s only right I enjoy the nectar

Peace Fest

Hopefully, this summer will be one to remember
peace fest, yeah I’m attending, hopefully it’ll be in august or september
peace fest hopefully can delete stress
hopefully it can ease this pest that sits on my back and rest
but I digress
peace fest hopefully will blind lies
and unwind evil ties
peace fest hopefully will legalize
maybe not, but it’s something u may soon realize
peace fest where real lies
in the same ground this city was founded, but we’re so bounded because no one tries
the sound of negativity surround us like subwoofers blasting about how someone dies
Chicago a city of wind and so many unfortunate mothers’ cries
see that’s why this peace fest is needed, to show that through art, a crumbled city can rise
c’mon, avert your ears and eyes
this concert and comfort your lives
so the next time u chill guys
make sure when u do, u do at peace fest

Random Thought

Trying to get more numbers accounted for, my accountant can’t even count them
but not in the spotlight though, that’s nonsense
I just want to be an inspiration, I want to be known for giving a positive conscience
I guess it started when I first left earth, yeah I’m far gone and haven’t been back since
been tripping a lot lately, but haven’t packed since
I hope this make sense
but then again I’m not whole, so I don’t have enough to make cents
I hold too much in like I have no air vents
I throw shade because I avoid the spotlight like tents
I just want to own some comfort, because I don’t like to rent
I think I sin too much to the point it’s pointless to repent
plus I never got a response from that letter heaven sent
I mean am I wrong for not being her superman, sorry no clark kent
is it selfish to want to get more butt than a park bench
I been hurt, that’s why my words are so cold from my heart that’s drenched
these nightmares are squeezing the life out of me, but I’m confused because I feel every pinch
that’s why I’m trying to fix my life with no tool box, just a wrench
I feel like I’m losing this fight, let me slow things down, that’s why I’m leaning and holding on my future like a clench
just giving up is bullsh*t, excuse the stench
If u think I’m just another statistic, u got me f***ed up, excuse my french

Random Thought

She got a body like an acrobat

yeah, she’s action packed

but she’s trying to get that absence back

I was gonna tell her she was beautiful, but I had my caption snatched

I can tell she wash’t the open type, I knew that her heart was latched

she told me that it was like I was throwing it at her

yeah, that’s true I’m not gonna lie, so I hope she can catch

but respect I gave because she had the personality to match

plus I already got attached

but she kept sending me off, I felt like a dispatch

and to be honest with all these come downs my heart was beginning to feel attacked

who am I kidding, maybe it was just an itch I need scratched

or should I just walk away and admit to a fail

I tried but her body was like what the hell

I wanted to feel on her like I was reading braille

if her love was like jail, then I’m not trying to bail

I’ll dig for for her affection, hand me my shovel and pail

I know at the point I’m just riding the wings of hope, well watch me sail

but was it love or lust, honestly I can’t tell

too bad I had to break her spell

because when I woke up it was already twelve

 

Random Thought

Hell froze

If I ever quit

hell no

can I get a lift

who the hell knows

my nose grows

every time my lies let hope float

and let it be known it’s no joke

I told half truths by the boat load

but now my mind so open I can’t fold

I’m trying to heat your ears with words so cold

I feel like people beyond believe the honesty I told

negative people have a negative hold

so negativity I chose

I tell them “keep talking and I’ll make sure your lens see my low hand”

“yeah, and he have a twin who want to join friend”

but enough of that, back to positive thinking again

all I want to do is win

but all I end up doing is sin

I mean my dreams are right there, they’re closer than kin

go ahead and get that stuff from my tin

the knowledge hits u in an instant plus it’s smooth going in

I hope my lines are hypnotic mixed with gin

drunk off my love for writing

because it’s so inviting and exciting

It’s crazy all this time I was thinking, damn was this what was so frightening?

I thought I would just give a couple points like the helmet of a viking

but who knew I would take a liking

I reminisce about my days of a titan

trying to shock the ones who mocked me with my lightening

but that was back when I never used words, I was always fighting

nowadays I’m just hoping that this will be my master piece

because this art has truly captured me

which saved me, because my nightmares had me falling off and almost fractured me

but that’s another story or tragedy

It’s messed up, every time I try to have my cake and eat it too, I end up battered gee

love stinks when it rot like packaged meat

that’s why I need to get a better grip on my field of dreams like a soccer cleat

my work will have u thinking u were my client

I’m far from violent

remember that titan from earlier, well sometimes he has his tyrant

but no matter what I’m going to always make space for this like a hydrant

I’m one u can look up to like a giant

it’s crazy what my mind can come up with when I’m not even trying

 

Random Thought

Her ocean smells like rainwater

whenever I’m inside her border

the things I’m about to do to someone’s daughter

I’m about to make her shoot fireworks how I’m playing with her mortar

she said I was on game because I didn’t court her

I mean when I saw her on that corner

first thought was to bend her over and make her take my snaps like I’m playing quarter

plus with all my problems, I didn’t want to bore her

that’s why after I explored her, I ignore her

because I didn’t want her thinking I need more of her

but then again I rarely seen this

plus I have the this urge to thread her needle, my little seamstress

she said the cunning of this one have me cumming from cunnilingus

I received a standing ovation how I was drumming with my penis

soon after she pledging her allegiance

like I was her leader

just because I chose to beat her instead of greet her

maybe I should keep her

my one in a million, it’s crazy her name was aaliyah